Friday, August 29, 2014
I believe that reflection, on life, on self, on focus and change is important. I believe that reflection is needed for growth and to evolve as a person. Without reflection you can not learn who you are, where you have been, or where you are headed.
I am learning however, that reflection can be a double-edged sword. Reflection may help spur growth and change, but as an over-thinking worrywart, refection often comes at a cost... opening old wounds, stirring emotions, reminding of pain and sadness as well as joy and success.
It is not easy to spend time working on ones self when it hurts, when there is pain and sorrow. No one wants to be reminded of the bad choices, the ignorant decisions, the blows from those we thought loved us, or at best, liked us. Without spending time reflecting though, how would we ever rise up from the ashes?
Reflection may bring me tears, it may allow regret to creep in and for me to feel vulnerable and exposed, but some how I am a better person for feeling it, for allowing myself to reflect on the moments of the past and using what I gain from my refection to grow.
So here is to my quiet house, my time to think, time to focus, time to reflect, my time to grow and feel and move forward in this crazy insane life.
Sunday, August 24, 2014
Wednesday, July 9, 2014
I am an independent thinker with the ability to educate myself on matters I find important and I have the ability to make up my own mind. Agreeably I am very liberal in my beliefs and convictions. I believe in equal rights, the right to chose, equal pay, education and even evolution and global warming. But I am also conservative in some areas... I believe in less government, freedom to bear arms, allowing faith in schools and yes, I do believe in God.
I am of the conviction that I can believe in what I want and how I want. You might call me a hodgepodge of beliefs. I come from the school of open mindedness. I was raised in an environment of open mindedness and because of that I was able to develop my own thought process on matters like religion, government and life in general.
I respect everyone, and the idea that we all have different opinions. Your choice in God, political party, and view points on hot topics like abortion, equal rights, gay marriage or world events will not determine whether or not I will have a friendship with you. As long as equal respect is given, I judge no one based on their personal beliefs and opinions.
My opinions are my own, I have formed them based on what I know and how I feel. I will hare my opinions and engage in healthy, friendly debate. I welcome debate as long as it remains a debate focused on fact and respect. Debate is good, it fuels conversation and inspires people to get educated and informed about the things they feel passionate about.
I am who I am. I believe what I believe. I share what I share. I grow as I grow. Let us all remember that we are who we are and believe what we believe and it is okay to be different, okay to be opinionated and passionate about our convictions. Stay true to who you are and what you believe, with respect for all.
Monday, June 30, 2014
I have to stop trying to make myself something I am not, and embrace what I am. I am a writer of life and opinion and self. Of course I want to make people laugh and draw an audience with humor, but as is apparent from the lack of posts on my blog, I have not been successful with the humor thing so far.
My reality, my "real life" is messy and complicated and some times down right ugly. I am extremely opinionated ~ almost to a point where I think I might actually be judgement rather than just opinionated (but that is for another post). I scream, I yell, I swear and break down and I cry... and find little humor in all of this some times. I do however always feel inspired to share the mess that is my life, so I need to share in the truest form and not in some forced form of humor.
Letting go of the perception that I could write my ugly, complicated, drama riddled life in a comedic way is leaving me feeling very exposed and variable. Showing people the layers of my life in a raw and honest way is frighting. To take the fluffy humor out of my writing and leave the realness of reality leaves me exposed to the world ~ Naked and Exposed. I am not comfortable naked, I have way to many flaws to feel comfortable. I can not let this hold me back though. I can not be the only person in this great big world living a ugly, complicated, drama riddled life.
My heart demands that I share, that I write ~ Naked and Exposed if I must, with all my flaws and faults glaring for the world to see. I need to believe, my soul demands that I see that what I write might actually be important to someone, it might inspire someone, it might even save someone.
I have a skill, a talent, that can move people, that can educate people that can bring joy, tears, memories and emotions.
My words, in whatever format I chose to share them can and will bring something to this world, some how. As variable as I feel, I know this is the right direction to be moving in. It is time to tear down my walls and give what I have to give, to feed my dream and write toward my future.
Friday, June 27, 2014
Okay, that is all for now... I am actually working on a real life for post to put up later today!!!
Mamma Hen signing off!!
Thursday, April 17, 2014
When I was growing up I did not know my extended family very well. My mom had a lot of issues with her family and my biological father was not in the picture so it kept us from spending time with aunts and uncles and cousins. I really don't know any of my extended family even now as an adult. I mean I am friends with some of my aunts and cousins on facebook but that is about it. When I had kids I swore I would do whatever it took to make sure that my kids were close with their aunts and uncles and cousins and I am proud to say that they are. Sure they could be closer with some, but I do my part to keep the relationships open, I cannot force people to be active parts of our life if they don't want to be. My kids get to grow up with their cousins and that is so awesome to me. I get to be an aunt, which I totally love and am really good at and we all get to feel part of a family, outside of our own little unit. As a kid I always felt so lonely and like I was missing out on something because I did not have close relationships within my family. Even today it saddens me that I am not closer with the many cousins and aunts and uncles that I have, as I value family so much and would love to be close with all of them.
The kids just got some Easter presents from one of their aunts and I know how excited they are going to be when they come home and open their boxes!! The kids and I also started this thing where each set of aunt and uncles gets a holiday and we send little packages with cards and special things to them on that holiday. So far we have done Valentine's Day, St. Patrick's Day, April fool's Day and Easter. We picked the "off" holidays like Labor Day and Earth Day and silly ones like that, so that they have to put thought into what they send. So far each box has been so much fun for us to put together and for the person receiving to get!! It has allowed the kids the chance to get to know each aunt and uncle so they know what kind of things to pick out for their boxes!! It has really been a fun little venture and I think this going to be an annual thing for us. Each year we will mix up the holidays, and just keep showing how much we love the people in our lives!!
Family is what you make it right? Well I am making a close family with memories and closeness, because that is what my heart tells me we need!